The fact that I have this space for self expression whenever I need it, has to be the most comforting thing. I am going through so much right now, at times I don’t even know what to do. I’m in a life crisis and I don’t know how to ask for help or even who.

I know it is bad when I cannot bring myself to have a glass of water or want to take a shower, brain fog, body aches and mental and emotional breakdowns. I feel totally worthless, and sometimes almost calling it quits.

Nobody owes you a thing that is for sure. But then again, no man is an island that is what they say huh! We all need someone and probably that is who I’m missing. Maybe a therapist or more than a friend. Someone who is willing to listen to my woes and troubles without judgment.

Single life is great, but not always. Right now I cannot even put myself to dating someones son because he will literally be picking me up and that is not what I want. I need to survive this by myself so I can be sober and able to take on someone else. At least that is what I tell myself. A damsel in distress that needs saving for sure, who’s going to save me? Me? You?

Maybe you are there going through the same mental distress and overwhelmed by life. Things not going on as you’d wish. Do not give up please. Take it one minute at a time, by hour by day, force yourself to drink that glass of water and take a shower. Go for a walk in the neighborhood and maybe meet someone and converse with a shopkeeper. It does help, and sometimes sleeping it off.

My journey is not smooth at the moment, I literally do not know what to do. People pulling me down, other than lifting me up. I cannot promise that it will get better or worse but I owe it to myself to be better, to great again, to conquer the world. I owe it to myself and I have to keep on pushing through the pain.

Maybe you are there and need someone or are willing to listen and help me out.Reach me at my WhatsApp+254711730944. Hope to see you soon for more conversations.